This is gr8

This post is from my mail ......

kisi nazar ko tera !!!

kisi nazar ko tera intezaar aaj bhi hai.........

i want to write again .. i want to live again

26 years, a handsome duration for a fairly competent man to get where he wants to or at least be on the road which leads to his goal and here am i, confused and diffident as ever , in search of the lanes that lead to my goal. Good thing is I do what my goal is and with each passing moment of incompetency , i am driving further away from my destination. The basic problem with me is that there is no problem. Everything is so perfect, the environment so conducive. But for my will which has suffered derilious blow at the hands of life and my decisions.

I have taken so many harsh decisions for myself which i know are good but surely not in the short run. People form a good part of my being and that part of my being is definitely achieving at least in the outward show which makes me and my efforts seem timid . I have accumulated so much pressure on myself that i fear failure to death now. I can't stand the fear of failing and that is where i have degraded myself to a piece of animal.

Failure is but a part of life and we must accept is the way it comes. It doesn't mean that i should just be sitting idle ... atleast working out and failing would be a different experience than the thought " Had I put in more efforts". Yes i know , i must plan and execute the gameplan , however silly it might be in my eyes or to the world. but i must fight back in the next few days ........ who knows success might be just one leap ahead!!!!

Last Blog as a Bachelor!!

This has to be something different, much different than what i have written till date.Why ? coz this holiday was drastically different than all others. This was perhabs my last holiday at home with marital status single. How is life going to change in the next 50 days. I won’t be single any more. I will married by the end of the 50^th day from now on. God! I am ecstatic as well as terrified. I know that I want to get married and that too with the girl I am marrying but don’t know if this is the right time and state to get married . But how does that matter. The most important thing is the willingness and the desire to get married. Rest all follows. Life will certainly change in the next half century days and I have to prepare myself for the change. I am going to lead a family and I have to adapt myself to this responsibility. Some one has said “its all in the mind” . I believe in the same philosophy. I can well be the CEO of any fortune 100 company and can equally manage my family , relations and my new designation as a husband. I sure can , the only thing what needs to be changed in the discipline factor. I need to become much more disciplined in my life and rest again will follow.

Well, this relationship has made me learn some facts of life; my past relationships were all fake , almost all of them. I dont feel  anything for any girl who had been in and out of my life. I don’t know why but i got a great lesson that i really wasted my time with all of them and cupid was far away resting in peace.Love means a lot more than the three golden words.

The career has yes, taken a back seat in my life at present but I have not at all neglected my goals, professional or personal. Thanks to the family and the new addition to it, I keep remembering my words on and off. I also truly believe that marriage should  boost  my career rather than jeopardize it as it mostly depends on the relationship you share with the girl and the maturity of the counterpart and i am confident of both of the factors. The girl is mature in terms of studies and goals and yes she supports me more than  myself. I like her for being what she is..... Godspeed ..amrit

आवारा हवा!!!

आवारा हवा का झोंका हूँ ..
आ निकला हूँ पल दो पल के लिए
सागर की लहरों से टकराता....
चल निकला हूँ मैं साहिल के लिए
.
मंजिल में अपने कांटे सही
चुन डालूँगा सारे तेरी एक हँसी के लिए ..
चाहे लब पे आहट न हो कभी
मैं जलता रहूंगा तेरी तेरी रौशनी के लिए
.
एक दिन वह भी कभी आएगा
जब आंसू तेरे छलकेंगे एक आशिक के लिए
अपनी ज़िंदगी तो तनहा है ..
लम्हे बाकी हैं ज़न्नत के लिए ..
.
तुम देखो या न देखो पलट कर ..
मेरी आखें बिछी हैं तुम्हारी राहों के लिए ...
तुम चाहो तो अब भी आ जाओ ..
दिल मचला है फिर तुम्हे पाने के लिए
.
आवारा हवा का झोंका हूँ
आ निकला हूँ पल दो पल के लिए

A little sweet

A little sweet ,
A little sour
A little close ...not too far ........
All I need.... All I need ....... All I need is to be free......

Far off ...... when I shall walk into the clouds ....when i shall meet the horizons .....where I shall lay calm......... quiet ........... with my eyes closed and words silenced, this shall be the cost of my freedom, yes when i leave this mortal to meet the immortal. Every desire will be lost in the vaccumm and every feeling burnt in the stars ............ Life would begin in a new world, where I shall be free , free from this life.....................................................................................

Run Away!

Of late very queer thoughts keep knocking on my wisdom lanes,one of which is to leave every piece of attachment behind and plunge in the ocean of "the search for the soul".

What is my idea of running away ? Interesting.....

A placid beach with blue waters ....... beach miles long and the world far away from this land...where the mobile phone doesn't sing every minute and where the traffic horns do not disturb your dreams , where the stars are not hidden due to the rooftop and th buildings nearby , where the sunlight wakes me up rather than this alarm clock. i don't have burgers here , but deep in the forest I have fruits on the trees... i don't have geysers here but the fountain from the hill above is refreshingly natural.......... I love nature and when it is at its best.I love it more than anything else...........................

I know I am confused, I guess I severely need a break.I am f**** up here with everything.. Nothing gives me comfort ....

Wonder..........!!

Wonder ... why i did let you go
leading my heart to this tremendous blow \n
days are the same but the nights are not
breaths are the same but life is not
missing u from the core of my heart
dont know how long will this tremor last


You were the one made for me
wrong was i and right were thee..
sweet were the days we were together
loving each other caressing one another


those sweet fights those tender altercations
every time when you said "i wont talk again"
those bunch of roses i gave to sulk off ur pain
and then you laughed "i was kiddin"
fun were the days with a graindoise living

missin you dear for u r not near
ur shadows though are always here
holding me in distress often when i am in tears..
but i may not stand this pain for long
its my heart where you belong.

come back dear for the life is too short
dont know how soon i have to abort
here stand i on the edge of love cliff
come back for once so that i can rest in sleep.

courtesy : amrit

Unknown

To find somethg different , to find somethg new
his heart cries and here the eyes roll out a dew
Walking all alone on the roads unknown
trudging along with the wounds,full blown

Unkempt and withered enigma on his face
Of breach, break and hurt with disgrace
little did he know , the world was playing with him
fully unknown that his fate was drowning with grin



NOT COMPLETED

Face off : Love

This is about the most coveted form of relationship in the age group of 16-25 . This is about finding a soulmate , finding your better half ....about finding ur love . At the same time this is about the fallacy of love , about the myth called "I love her" ,about the lust called love and most importantly about the fashion trend of life "LOVE BUG".

There is a lot of hue and cry raised for love ....... hardly you can find people single by choice or with the reason " i dint get any of my kind" ....Seriously , how many will say "i never fell in love " ....... very few .... infact none if they speak truthfully ....

but do you think they all did fall in love at any point of time . if yes , then either love has been surplus or cupid has been working late in 21st century and if cupid wasn't working these days very religiously, how come these people lie , not to the rest of the world but even to themselves.....they don't lie to us , they have been lying all these days to themselves...... an auora of a word "LOVE" that they have created around themselves has engulfed them all,making them believe that they indeed are in love ...

Then the Q is what real love is ? i would like to quote a person who has not only seen many facets of life but also reproduced them to us ...Dickens says " what real love is ? it is blind devotion , unquestioning self humiliation, truth and belief against yourself and against the whole world. this in my opinion , the closest definition of love that i have ever come across.Every word of it echo love ........did u see sthg .....it is love and rebellion at the same time , love is rebellion......
and that requires the courage to falsify every thing on this earth....love is eternal, beyond thoughts , beyond words , beyond reason and beyond time and beyond life.

What is that we see today .... lots of relationships .... calling themselves eternal ...claiming themselves as love ..... but are they ? are they perfect when said "i had a breakoff with my previous boyfren ...this time i have found my love " ....is it love ...No it is not because the verification of the relationship is dependent on time..... Love , remember, is beyond time. Do you love me ? "Yes, I Love you " ..... these 3 words of reassurance ...is this love ...no it is not because love doesnot need any assurance ....any question or ne answers....it is beyond words.

You say ,"I can die for you ?" ........believe me ... It is tougher to live for some one than to die for him/her. The smallest concerns ,right from making the person smile to giving the next one evethg that she/he wishes , making all sacrifices so that her eyepetals are bereft of dew drops forever...dying every moment so that she can live .... living every moment so that she can live ......burning your desires in the flame of her wishes ...moulding your soul in her body ...... that is what love is .....

have you ever felt the same for anyone ? have u ever lived ur life in the wake of such an angel..........if yes ...u are in love .....

I NEVER WAS ...... neither are you .....

We condemn arrange marriages .... reason being ,it is a compromise. I say , the love, we see today , is more of a compromise ... a compromise without any dedication and sometimes without any committment. They say we are in love , physical expressions of it and public display of affection fascinate them. Many blend into the love -smuv just for the sake of it. others for emotional satisfaction and some merely as a status symbol. Universal culture adatation has brought about , if not anything else , the word "boyfren" and "girlfren", a cool and casual way to show off your worldly assets.It is this philosophy that drives the teens today ...... throwing away their precious energies in the mask of love ...............pulling themeselves apart in the name of Love .....and only for the name of it ..........coz ... that is wht is remaining of love in this world .......only ITS NAME ......


to be continued .........depends on time and mood ...its not my love :)

some questions ?

do you have an answer to these :


do you know what do u love the most ?

do u possess the above or are u completely possessed by the above ?

do you know what you are doing at present ?

do you what you want to do at the end of this ?

do you know what you want to do after 5 years ?

do you know what are you best at?

do you know what u shud be doing at present?

do you see coherence in the answers above ......


if yes ... i have never seen a happier man/woman if no ... dont worry ..that's the mojaority ....and mojority always wins